Maddy "Maddypaws" Paws @makyo@maddypa.ws

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My book of short stories, Restless Town, is now available as a paperback, an ebook, and an audiobook! If you're interested in queer animal people trying their best to get by in a flyover state, I've got you covered.

https://makyo.ink/publications/restless-town/?pk_campaign=pinned&pk_kwd=toot

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(Yes, some of it is just bullshit motets leave me alone I like them)

It's chrismas season! Merr chrismas!

Here is a playlist of nonstandard contemporary christmas and christmas-adjacent music, if you're looking for something other than the usual: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4X74B3kqtwMec6yMeq8FH7?si=S-nGofOARuKxTOKNK_TNkw

I've intentionally kept it free of any standards, just 'cause. (Yes, that makes it LDB game safe.)

$5+ patrons get a peek at the e-proof of Eigengrau from the printer. It's a look into one of the final steps of the process! https://www.patreon.com/posts/32303219

$10+ patrons get a free copy of the ebook! https://www.patreon.com/posts/32303630

Y'all, my patrons are so great! I'm thankful for all of 'em <3

Huh, turns out prowling through Facebook is a good way to find out which of your D&D party members are quietly super transphobic and just never talk about it during games ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Text link: https://gist.github.com/makyo/7b66edf89a18dac1ba6b61c25a140486

...huh. The baseline test from Blade Runner 2049 is from Pale Fire, which makes sense on about eighteen different levels :P Now I want to rewatch the movie having read the book!

LB: when...did I ever say 'font wars'?

Current status: visibly transfemme, gray ace, stupid poly, cat on the internet.

2015: Change name publicly and legally. Boss makes me call every coworker to tell them individually. French coworker is baffled.
2015: Am transfem.
2015: Gain...partner. Pup? Pupner.
2016: What if...surgery? Oh god, it's...really easy to just get on a waiting list.
2016: Pupdate: sex still doesn't make a lick of sense.
2017: Deffo getting surgery whoops.
2018: HOLY FUCKING SHIT SURGERY
2018: Pupdate: maaaaybe sex? Still doesn't make sense, but no longer feels attrocious.

2011: Graduate, get a job, start freaking out about gender, and decide to be altersex Ethiopian wolf. Get told I'm disgusting to my face and cut out of a friend circle.
2012: Marry that boyf.
2012: Start freaking out SO BAD about gender, that I drop my testosterone to zero during TIASAP.
2012: FINE. GOD. Maybe I'm enby -.- Add a small amount of E to not feel so awful.
2013: Gain...partner? But married? Poly, hmm...
2014: Okay, maybe I'm...femmeby?
2015: Start HRT legit.

2005: Date ths vaguely abusive dude, dun' wanna talk about it. But also date Rikky, whomst fox.
2006: What if I was a fox...whomst girl??? But it's just for RP I swear I'm not trans.
2006: I kinda sorta date this mink and also a nonfurry girlf and maybe also previous boyf all at once and I should have maybe figured out poly, but instead I just break a bunch of hearts.
2007-2008: idk. It's all a haze.
2008: I have...boyf. Gonna marry that boyf in a few years.

2000: I have...boyf. He calls me Matty.
2000: My stepdad FREAKS OUT and starts spying on me, which my mom uses as ammo to get a divorce from him.
2000: Oh...furry??? Maybe I'm a furry.
2000: Oh...typefucking??? And wow, lots of it!
2001: Deffo a furry. I have boyf whomst fox.
2004: Huh, turns out sex doesn't make a lick of sense in person
2004: Boyf and I drift apart, but! Gain transmasc boyf whomst wolf.
2005: Boyf and I drift apart, but! There's...Lon. Whatever he was?

1986~1996: am babby
~1996: "Gay men," I explain to a friend with the authority borne of my ten years on this earth. "Are men who want to be women, and lesbians are women who want to be men."
~1997: I get hit right in the face by puberty
1999: Oh...boys??? Maybe I like boys.
2000: I come out to my mom by leaving a book of coming out stories on her stack of mystery novels right before heading to my dad's. She calls me that evening, and we have a week of discussion.

Yoooo I reordered the sections and I'm like eighty bajillion times happier with the book.

https://makyo.ink/publications/eigengrau

Recorded a good chunk of Eigengrau tonight. Starting to worry about starting with Missives, but unsure of what to replace it with. Hmm hmm hmm.